Tomorrow I will be 15 weeks pregnant with not one, but two little rosebuds. Yep, that’s them in the photo over there, hanging out in my uterus, listening to the Jerry Springer show. (Perhaps I should start choosing more child-friendly background noise?)

I refer to them as “rosebuds” not because it’s cutesy & sounds better than “fetuses” (ew!), but because my last name is “Rose”. Sooo… little baby Roses = rosebuds. Alright, fine, it’s a little cutesy. Onward…

My husband & I only planned on having one baby. Total. EVER. So it was quite a shock when we went for our first ultrasound at 9 weeks & got the news. What made it even more surreal was the way the u/s technician told us. “Okay, so there’s one baby… and there’s another…” Um, say what?! She said it so nonchalantly, as if having twins was the norm. Like we were expecting it. I didn’t even know what to say. All I could manage to blurt out was “But we only wanted ONE!!!”.

I’ve never been much of a “baby person”, or a kid person in general. I’ve never even changed a diaper. If someone would ask me if I’d like to hold their baby, I would awkwardly decline. So it was no surprise that my family was shocked at the news that I was having 2-for-1 babies. Don’t get me wrong, they’re all happy for us, but they just can’t picture me as a momma. A double momma. To be honest, I feel the same. Now that the shock has worn off, I’m definitely excited about my future mommy-ness, but I’m also terrified at the same time.

Will I be a good mom? Will I go crazy? Will I curse our crazy good fertility? I guess only time will tell. One thing’s for sure, it’s going to be quite an adventure. Get the popcorn ready…

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